Day 39

Liquid

Today

Medium iced coffee w/ skin 30

yogurt drink 200

chicken soup 200

T 430

On May 28, I posted this:

Bust: 36.75

Waist: 26.5

Hip: 37

Butt: 40

Short term Goals / Long term Goals

Waist: 25.5 / 24

Hip: 36/ 35

Butt: 38/ 37

Well today I measured and:

Bust ?

Waist: 25.75

Hips: 36.25

Butt: 38.5

Getting there.

Day 36

Back from my weekend.  I have been eating average 1275- 1300 cals which is pretty good seeing it has been all eating out. I worked out 2 of the 3 days.  BTW, for dinner thursday, I had a meatball and mexican rice.  It only ended up being 600 cals.  Don't have much time but I will weigh in tomorrow.

 Day 32

Well that didn't go well at all.  My boss was asking me what's wrong because I was so down in the dumps all day.  I had a goodbar mini and it really increased my energy.  My boyfriend told me straight up "I'm only telling you this once, but you need to eat.  Your attitude is really taking a toll on us and the diet is dumb anyway.  You were doing fine without this extreme."  In a way, he's right.  I would prefer to be energized and losing 1-2 pounds a week than down in the dumps moaning and groaning for a few more.  In fact, my 'liquid diet' was waaaaaay more palatable than this crap.  I don't think the weakness and anxiety is worth an extra pound or two.  I'm really sorry to disappoint you all.

I'm glad I'm not anorexic.  I guess like they say, it's a psychological disorder more than anything.  Sure I have disordered eating and sometimes think negarively of myself, but it's never really to 'that' point.  As long as I have my scale, my anxiety is calmed. 

By the way, I weighed myself this morning and it still went down about the same as before.  I'll reveal the weight as close to July 4th as possible, but I'm still not sure if I'll make my goal. Wish me luck.  I was wondering if I even will be able to post my weight since I'm going away for the fourth.  I guess I may have to bring my laptop and my scale.

Anyhow! It's a new day and I'm going to try to keep this thing healthy and around 1000- 1200 cals.  I'll burn at least 900 of them.

Plan

B eggwhites with light whole grain and cheese and grapes 200 and protein shake 150

S light and fit yogurt 60

E elliptical 450

L light whole grain with turkey and laughing cow 170

E elliptical 300 + leg lunges and weights 100

S protein shake 150 cookie 70

D grilled chicken salad 300

E elliptical 150

S tea and 1/2 toast with laughing cow 45

T in 1145

T out 1000

"You will see me at the gym, just workin' on ma fitness"

-Fergie

Oh, and every few days on my walk, I stop at H & M to try on these shorts.  I never EVER wear shorts in public because my thighs are my weak spot.  So I'm determined to buy these pair of size 26 (waist) shorts by the end of July and wear them in public.  I took camera pic of me in them yesterday.  They go all the way up and button and all that, but they are just ugly looking.  My saddle bags stick out and it's just a mess.  Hopefully by the end of the month I'll fix that.  I don't have skinny jeans but those are my 'skinny shorts'.